Company Girl Coffee 7.10.09

Dear Friends,
I am on the road again, hence the note on the door to help yourself. Today I am in Brentwood in the HGDiTV studios again. Today we're working with Allison Worthington Mrs. Fussypants of Mrs. Fussypants.com Alli is the mom of five, stepmom of one, and is the owner of BlissfullyDomestic.com and Mrs.Fussypants.com We're cooking up programming for HGDiTV to continue Blissfully Domestic's stellar work on finding good things for women. How fun to have Alli's character Mrs. Fussypants on the sets, she's SO funny!
My daughter is with me today, while my son is at football practice and college man is home working. Dh joins me tonight in Brentwood and we work on taping for our ministry tomorrow morning then head home.
God has been whispering loudly again to me, when I get tired, when I get overwhelmed to "just do the next thing" and then rely on Him. Its working but I still get so overwhelmed managing family, home, work, and life.
The children are home for 2 weeks then return for 2 more weeks with their natural dad and stepmom in another state. Its been a new time for us as a blended family, to grow as their natural father's new family has expanded with his marriage and they suddenly have a scad of new aunts, uncles, and a new set of step grandparents. I am thankful they are accepted....but even as much as I believe there is plenty of love for all of us, its hard to find myself being compared and measured by complete strangers to me (the new family and friends) and usually not in the kindest of ways. Of course, they are thrilled with the new groom (I was too, why would I have married him if I hadn't of been) But our marriage ended long ago. I know its just human nature, but my gosh, I have been mom their whole life, I am willing to accept their stepmom as part of their life, but do people have to always try to make it a competition. We are so different (I'm 44, she's 28, I own my own business, she is a paramedic I have reared 4 children, these are her first stepchildren) and she has value for their life as I do. I want them to without guilt love and spend time with us all. I want to uphold and honor their father and his wife as I would hope he would honor and uphold Les.
My heart is still very sad for my friend whose husband ended his life this week in Texas. She and their two children are so shocked as we all were, my heart is even more saddened that I cannot be there for the funeral tomorrow. I will find her next week when I am in Texas though.
God is God and we are not....help others find God through your heart.