Wednesday

This morning is not going exactly as planned. I had a delightful appointment at 9:30 a.m. with an author friend of mine, but life is life, and unfortunately that was postphoned until 1:30 p.m. today. Meanwhile I am thankful for a very late hour and into the night error correction session on a website that a client of mine needed completed. I am thankful for a DH who not only assists in such times, but for absolutely no other reason than he hates to see me struggle, pitches in and becomes the ultimate tandem team player. We get somewhere together, and the truth is, this morning one of two website launch issues is completed already at 9:15 a.m.
I feel like God is stretching me to a maximum shape right now.....and some days I simply want to say "I'll take a pass, turns out I'm not built for this, can I go home and pretend I didn't quit?" but then God gently whispers "You were made for such a time as this" sounds pretty MGM doesn't it....but God has done so many miracles in the past few months that I dare not take His nudgings lightly. God's ways are not our own, many directions I thought we were going, were simply exits to a new highway....going to roads I never expected to travel, or even know where the destinations are.
My boundaries are having to change by the hour lately. It seems every human wants to control something....and many of what they want to control is ME. God has been very specific with me on who to say "no thank you" to and whom to let go when they say "or else". Sometimes it breaks my heart to realize someone who was close, is no longer. Other times I am amazed at how God is weaving His tapestry and whom He has brought into our lives and who has partnered with us to reach more families.
Those of us who are pleasers, have to truly continually work on remembering the only opinion that counts is God's. The priorities must be continually focused on: God first, Family Second, Everything else after that! For weeks we've had a skewed focus after God, because sometimes surges have to happen when the children are away on visitation, but its time to settle back down into what works for our family, ministry, and work, and with God's directives first.
This morning as I code the 24th shopping cart item for a client, I am simply ready for normacy again, and God so provided the help,....and I am thankful for a dishwasher churning, a clothes washer running, children playing in the background, a roast in the crock pot...but most of all I am thankful for a God who sees us through all parts of our lives, perceived crisises and real.

God is God and we are not!